Only a few years ago I was living a completely different lifestyle, one that was destructive to my health and happiness, I was really at a place of rock bottom, and searching for love in all the wrong places.
I found myself in a corporate career, one I had ‘dreamed of’ doing my whole life, one that lived up to the idea of ‘successful’ - according to society’s standards. Yet I felt a failure at my core. I wondered how I was really adding any value to the world. I was constantly distracted at work browsing nutrition, wellness + travel blogs, dreaming of another life.
My weekdays were filled with obsessively calorie counting, fad diets, fasting and sometimes I would go to the gym sometimes 2-3 times a day. Despite feeling like I was ‘doing everything right’ to lose weight and feel good in my body, I was constantly unhappy and always struggling with my weight, fluctuating 5 - 15 kilos. On the weekends, I would go to the opposite extreme and completely let go of my diet, binge drink and take drugs.
Rewind a bit before the height of my chronic illness, I got breast implants in 2012. I was at my lowest weight (52 kilos) and I decided I still wasn’t happy with my body. I had just come back from a 6 week ouzo fuelled adventure in Greece, had an amazing time but also a confronting incidence of sexual abuse. When I came home, I decided I needed breast implants to be happy. I realise now that I was just searching for something to escape the pain. Ultimately, it further contributed to the disconnection I felt within myself. I closed my heart to myself and others by placing these toxic implants on my chest.
The surgeon recommended I go much larger than I wanted, otherwise I would not get the desired finish. As soon as I had the surgery, my breasts were black and bruised. I lost most of the sensation (gratefully have been able to recover a lot of connection through meditation / visualisation and self healing) and they felt cold all the time. I struggled to fully integrate them over the 5 years, although I loved the way they looked - they always felt uncomfortable.
In 2014 I became chronically ill. I had a myriad of symptoms and my body was suffering from toxic overload and stress. I had been struggling with some mild health problems and addiction, but I hit the nail on the head after taking a morning after pill. It was like the perfect storm and my body was just waiting for something to shake the foundation.
The symptoms started to stack up and I was diagnosed with Leaky Gut Syndrome, Insomnia, Anxiety, Depression, Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome, Insulin Resistance, Adrenal Fatigue, Parasites, Rashes, IBS, Chronic Yeast Infections, Bacterial Vaginosis, Recurrent UTI’s, Bacterial Overgrowth (Streptococcus). A food sensitivity test showed a reaction to 52 different foods. My gut was very inflamed and my immune system was completely overloaded.
At my height of my illness, I was sleeping 1 or 2 hours a night. I would try everything but couldn’t fall asleep / stay asleep. I was highly emotional and in hindsight, very depressed. Thoughts like ‘why me’ plagued my mind. Why was I so sensitive? Why did I have to suffer?
My hormones were shot, my gut and immune system severely compromised, and I was out of touch with my body, mind and soul. I didn’t get my period for 2 years. I was having intense panic attacks. I felt at might be dying at times.
After seeking help, spending tens of thousands of dollars, and trying every supplement and protocol under the sun (and moon!) for over a year, I quit my job and moved to Brazil. My healing journey took me further into spirituality, exploring the mind and energetic body with retreats, plant medicine, yoga and meditation.
I finished up a holistic health coaching course in the midst of my illness, while phasing out my corporate job. I had hardly any money but I believed in what I was doing whole-heartedly. Out of all the suffering, I had found my true calling.
After quitting my job, the challenges continued. An unforeseen pregnancy, abortion due to toxicity/illness, bankruptcy, more sickness. The poison was working its way out of my mind and body. My faith was tested time and time again. My resolve strengthened. My skills amplified. My awareness heightened.
I was about to travel to Thailand in April 2018 to study 500 hour yoga teacher training and tantra. I decided to scan my breasts and found out one of my implants was ruptured (and probably for a while) and had them removed within a few days, before traveling to complete my YTT.
I questioned my choice of getting implants - but I didn’t want to have surgery unnecessarily after what my body had been through. In this case I had no choice. It was a blessing. I had secretly been wanting my own body back, after struggling so long with my health.
Originally when I first became ill, I asked my holistic practitioner if she thought it might be the implants and she said ‘I don’t think so’. I trusted her opinion, so I continued on, unsure but always wondering. I do believe the breast implants had a massive impact on my health and were the main source of toxicity, since I have hugely improved since having them removed. But as you can see here from my story the problem was created before the breasts implants. The toxicity was in my mind and perhaps this was how the universe helped me to purge that energy from my life. The whole experience changed my life and showed me a different way of being and relating to myself.
I feel very grateful for the transformation that has occurred, although it hasn’t been without challenge, I am now living far more in alignment with my dreams and my health is returning to full power - healthiest and fittest I’ve ever felt in my whole life. I still have my moments, but I feel so grateful for my body, so happy in my own skin. I transformed my mind, body and life and now I get to help others do the same.
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you could find BALANCE?
you felt at peace with your food choices
you could feel good in your body and find a way to eat right according to you
you could ease digestive issues like painful bloating or constipation
you could implement a lifestyle solution that allows you to detox, while giving you freedom to actually enjoy your life
you received more ENERGY, INSPIRATION and CLARITY to chase those dreams of yours
you increase your emotional state to feel more JOY, CONNECTION and ABUNDANCE
you release habits that are no longer serving you and any energy / emotional blockages keeping you stuck
you could learn how to live in a manner that had a greater impact on the planet
This experience forced me to re-evaulate my life and make some big changes.
I've made some discoveries that completely transformed my life. As a result, I've been falling in love with myself, my body and my life. I am living out my dreams. And now I want to help you do the same.
My hope is to empower you, to see that you are a product of your environment and inner dialogue - this can be changed based on your intention and effort
Consistently, clients achieve amazing results based on addressing the underlying emotional and mental aspects within themselves
Now I only take clients that are serious about transforming their lives and I only have limited spaces, so if this speaks to you, I'm offering a transformational health session completely FREE! Valued at over $250.
If you’re really ready to move forward…